July 2018 \\ actually okay for once??

So July was…fine? I’ve been feeling way better mental health wise and I got meds for my heart condition that seem to be working. Yay for that.

I mean…not much happened, I guess. I saw friends more times, which was nice. It has been raining her a TON. The library leaks sometimes. My cats are cute and cuddly and I love them. My boyfriend is cute and cuddly and I love him.

Oooooh, and I started working on my novel again! More posts on that to come.

Honestly, I cannot think of much else to say because July was a pretty okay month (which is def an improvement over the past few months).

 

What I Read

I read a few books this month, though of course not as many as *I* wanted to. I always want to read at least 10 but hardly ever get there. Anyway. I actually only read good books this month, and am having a hard time picking a favorite because I really liked everything I read. I think if I had to pick it would be between SHADOW & BONE and WARCROSS…oh, and yes, I FINALLY started the Grisha Trilogy!! I know I’m super late to the hype train, but now that I’ve started the series I am so on it because they are amazing. I also quite liked WARCROSS, which I was not expecting, and books that I don’t expect to like always end up on my favorites list.

I also managed to do Astrothon and read 3 books for it, only one book away from my original 4-book goal. And, I of course have to mention that I read A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES by Cait of Paper Fury, and I was appropriately blown away by its awesomeness. I fully expected to love this book because Cait is wonderful and I was correct. So glad I got this one from Book Depository!!

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Blogging Things

I think my views picked up slightly near the end of the month, which is nice. I am now at 150 followers, woohoo!! I am slowly but surely going up in numbers. I still get more comments than I ever used to, which is also very good and makes me feel very validated as a blogger. I hope that trend continues.

This month I blogged about many things. I enjoyed writing my wtf post about bookstagram and my struggles with it. I also had fun compiling my list of bookish problems, because we bookworms always have so many problems, haha. I was nervous about writing my post about how I feel book blogging has changed, but most people who commented hadn’t been blogging as long as I have so I ended up being safe in terms of controversy.

 

Favorites

  1. Sailor Moon – I recently started watching the English dub of Sailor Moon because I just got Hulu and am liking it a lot. I think it’s really cool that this show depicts a teen girl who is very teen-girl like and still has her being powerful. Sailor Moon can be kind of whiny, doesn’t do great in school, and has boy problems, but she still saves the world on a daily basis. Plus, Luna is a cute cat and talking cats make the best sidekicks!
  2. OwlCrate. I decided to resubscribe to OwlCrate this month, and the box for June, “Strange & Peculiar” was THE BEST. I don’t think I’m going to finish the book, which was a green and purple MY PLAIN JANE, but I LOVED all the other items. I especially liked the funko pop keychain of Eleven with Eggos, the whale with books print, and the Luna Lovegood sticker.
  3. Masterchef – Okay, I know I talk about Masterchef all the time, but I enjoy it so much. I’m a little sad that Joe is gone on the most recent season that my bae and I have started, because now the judges are all too nice and nobody’s food has been thrown in the trash yet. Hopefully the show will pick up some as the season goes on.

 

How was your July? What are your August plans?

 

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July 2018 \\ actually okay for once??

So July was…fine? I’ve been feeling way better mental health wise and I got meds for my heart condition that seem to be working. Yay for that.

I mean…not much happened, I guess. I saw friends more times, which was nice. It has been raining her a TON. The library leaks sometimes. My cats are cute and cuddly and I love them. My boyfriend is cute and cuddly and I love him.

Oooooh, and I started working on my novel again! More posts on that to come.

Honestly, I cannot think of much else to say because July was a pretty okay month (which is def an improvement over the past few months).

 

What I Read

I read a few books this month, though of course not as many as *I* wanted to. I always want to read at least 10 but hardly ever get there. Anyway. I actually only read good books this month, and am having a hard time picking a favorite because I really liked everything I read. I think if I had to pick it would be between SHADOW & BONE and WARCROSS…oh, and yes, I FINALLY started the Grisha Trilogy!! I know I’m super late to the hype train, but now that I’ve started the series I am so on it because they are amazing. I also quite liked WARCROSS, which I was not expecting, and books that I don’t expect to like always end up on my favorites list.

I also managed to do Astrothon and read 3 books for it, only one book away from my original 4-book goal. And, I of course have to mention that I read A THOUSAND PERFECT NOTES by Cait of Paper Fury, and I was appropriately blown away by its awesomeness. I fully expected to love this book because Cait is wonderful and I was correct. So glad I got this one from Book Depository!!

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Blogging Things

I think my views picked up slightly near the end of the month, which is nice. I am now at 150 followers, woohoo!! I am slowly but surely going up in numbers. I still get more comments than I ever used to, which is also very good and makes me feel very validated as a blogger. I hope that trend continues.

This month I blogged about many things. I enjoyed writing my wtf post about bookstagram and my struggles with it. I also had fun compiling my list of bookish problems, because we bookworms always have so many problems, haha. I was nervous about writing my post about how I feel book blogging has changed, but most people who commented hadn’t been blogging as long as I have so I ended up being safe in terms of controversy.

 

Favorites

  1. Sailor Moon – I recently started watching the English dub of Sailor Moon because I just got Hulu and am liking it a lot. I think it’s really cool that this show depicts a teen girl who is very teen-girl like and still has her being powerful. Sailor Moon can be kind of whiny, doesn’t do great in school, and has boy problems, but she still saves the world on a daily basis. Plus, Luna is a cute cat and talking cats make the best sidekicks!
  2. OwlCrate. I decided to resubscribe to OwlCrate this month, and the box for June, “Strange & Peculiar” was THE BEST. I don’t think I’m going to finish the book, which was a green and purple MY PLAIN JANE, but I LOVED all the other items. I especially liked the funko pop keychain of Eleven with Eggos, the whale with books print, and the Luna Lovegood sticker.
  3. Masterchef – Okay, I know I talk about Masterchef all the time, but I enjoy it so much. I’m a little sad that Joe is gone on the most recent season that my bae and I have started, because now the judges are all too nice and nobody’s food has been thrown in the trash yet. Hopefully the show will pick up some as the season goes on.

 

How was your July? What are your August plans?

 

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how my reading habits have changed

I wanted the title of this post to be “how my reading habits have changed over the past two years” or “how my reading habits have changed since graduating college” specifically, but that seemed like too long of a title, so I decided to just clarify that here instead. A lot of things have happened and changed for me since college, including: getting my masters degree in library and information science, moving out of my parents’ house, getting my first full time library job, and moving in with my boyfriend. As a result of these things (and okay, maybe one main thing that I’ll talk about later…) my reading habits, including pacing, what I read, etc., have changed quite a lot. Here are some of the ways my reading has changed since graduating college:

  • I read WAYYYYY more slowly. I have never been one of those slightly obnoxious bloggers who can read 200+ books per year and then complain when the read “only” ten books in a month (sorry, getting salty there for a minute), but I did read 125+ books per year most years. I could easily read a book in a day, and I didn’t struggle at all to get through even books I didn’t like so much. Now, I read more like 60 books a year, which is still a lot for the average person, but I still kind of feel like I’m failing. I know why it happened; for about six months after college, I didn’t read because a week after I graduated, one of my best friends died of a rare heart condition. I couldn’t read or do much of anything that required brain or emotional power after that. Once I started reading again, it took me a long time to get into books, and I couldn’t speed through like I had done in the past. I’m slowly increasing my reading pace again now, but it’s still taking time to recover from, and honestly most of my reading habits listed on here have changed because of her death and how it affected me.
  • I read more fantasy. Especially this year, I think at least half of my reads have been fantasy. Starting mid-high school, I got really into contemporaries, and they were usually pretty dark or sad. After my friend died, I found it really hard to read books like that, and honestly still do. I definitely avoid books about death or grief, and even deaths that aren’t at all similar to my situation make me upset to read about. So I think that’s one of the main reasons I have turned more to fantasy: I can still be emotionally invested in a story but separate it from my real-life emotions. I also just like fantasy more, and there’s a lot of really good stuff out there that’s coming out and that I missed while I was on my contemporary kick. It’s like rediscovering the genre, and I usually love every fantasy I read.
  • I read more fluff. I have never been a fluff person, but this year I’ve managed a few fluffy books (standouts include LET’S TALK ABOUT LOVE and THE SUMMER OF JORDI PEREZ), and it’s made me enjoy reading again a lot more than my usual dark contemps. Again, I think it’s largely because I just want to avoid the dark stuff because I’m dealing with it too much in my own life and don’t want to think about it constantly.
  • In general, I use reading more as an escape. That’s really what more fantasy and fluff reads boil down to for me. I used to read more for solace and to feel like I wasn’t alone in my struggles, especially as a teen and in college, but now that I’ve gone through multiple real traumas and am struggling with PTSD, I just don’t have the brain space to deal with even fictional struggles as much. I’ve only read one of my “usual” contemps this year, WHEN MY HEART JOINS THE THOUSAND, and, while amazing, it was hard for me to get through because of my own life stuff.

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  • I value trigger warnings more. I don’t know if this really counts as a reading habit, but I’m putting it here anyway. I certainly understood the importance of trigger warnings before suffering traumas, but even after they happened I haven’t always been that understanding of certain trigger warnings, because sometimes it seemed like literally anything could have a trigger warning. However, now when I read reviews that include trigger warnings, I often find myself thinking I might avoid a book because it has something that upsets me in it, so I value them more.
  • I’m getting *slightly* less afraid of longer books. I know as a good and fast reader, I shouldn’t get intimidated by lengthy books, but honestly, I sooooo do. I think it’s mostly because my reading count is so much smaller than it used to be that I feel like I HAVE to read more short books in order to meet even my goal of 50, but lately, I’ve been dabbling in fantasy more, and those books tend to be 400+ pages. I think long fantasy is less intimidating to me, but contemporaries that are over 400+ pages usually get the side-eye from me still because that’s too long for a contemp in my opinion, and usually they don’t need to be that long. Anyway. I’ve been trying not to fear 400 page books, but books that are closer to 500 still seem daunting (looking at you, CHILDREN OF BLOOD AND BONE).
  • I make less time to read on my own. Honestly, I mostly read at work while I’m on desk and there aren’t as many patrons coming up to me to ask for help or to ask if the computers are down when they’re turned off and there are signs over them (damn, I’m feeling salty today!) When I get home, I usually just want to veg out and watch silly shows and can’t make my brain function enough to read. I would really like to read more at home and on weekends, but I find myself less motivated to do that than I used to be.

 

Talk to me: how has your reading been affected by adulthood or other major life changes? Do you have any tips for getting my reading pace back up? Let’s discuss!

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getting serious about series: series I want to continue and start

I am not a big series reader. I get terrible series amnesia and always have to read the previous book in a series when the next and newest one is released, so series tend to end up with a lot of extra work for me. Thus, I am VERY picky about series I start, and tend to prefer binge reading a series when it’s already out. Still, I do have some series on the back burner that I’ve been wanting to continue, and a few that I do actually want to start, even some newer ones. So, here’s a round up of series I want to continue and series I want to start.

 

Series to Continue

  • The Grishaverse | Leigh Bardugo – I FINALLY started reading these books because I’ve been getting more into fantasy this year…and I LOVE them. I love the Grisha magic system and find all their skills and the hierarchy and society aspects so fascinating. Alina is also an intense and intriguing protagonist, and I can tell things are going to get way darker in book 3. I’m kind of anticipating a Darkling-Mal-Alina-love triangle in book 3, which I’m not thrilled about though. The Darkling is awful. No spoilers, please!
  • Revenants | Amy Plum – I read the first book, DIE FOR ME, a while ago, then reread it a couple years back so I could finally read the other two books in the series. I’ve been debating rereading it again so I can actually continue them soon. Amy Plum’s writing is so addictive and the Paris setting is so vivid and perfect for the story. I also really like the concept of revenants, as it’s something I haven’t seen before in paranormal books.
  • Daughter of Smoke and Bone | Laini Taylor – I don’t know why I never continued this series. I think I felt cheated at the end of the first book because of the use of a trope I’m not a huge fan of, but I LOVED the rest of the book and I think I’d really like it if I read it again. Plus, now the whole series is out, so I can read it and I have yet to get any spoilers for it.
  • A Reaper at the Gates | Sabaa Tahir – This series is probably my favorite series. EMBER was a surprise favorite the year it came out; I honestly wasn’t expecting to love it so much because I didn’t read much fantasy back then yet. I’m probably going to have to reread TORCH (okay, part of me just WANTS to reread it) before I dive into REAPER. Also, am I the only one who DOESN’T ship Laia and Elias?? Am I crazy?
  • Warcross | Marie Lu – Other than the Grishaverse, this is the series I’ve read most recently. I absolutely loved WARCROSS, and I was super surprised that I did. I usually HATE sci-fi, but this book was so good. I need more Emika and the Phoenix Riders! Thank goodness I have an ARC of WILDCARD ready to be read ASAP 🙂
  • bonus: Harry Potter – I’ve also been debating rereading the entire HP series. I read it as it came out when I was much younger, and honestly I’ve forgotten a ton of it and I missed a lot of details when I first read them. I know it would be a massive undertaking, but I think it could be a fun project and maybe I’d like it better the second time around (I was a very critical reader as a child and wasn’t a huge fan of it like literally everyone else on the planet). Plus I want to get the new editions.

 

Series to Start

  • The Illuminae Files | Amie Kaufman & Jay Kristoff – I am still determined to read at least ILLUMINAE even though I’ve tried twice and failed. I don’t know why, because again, I usually hate sci-fi, and I ESPECIALLY dislike space sci-fi. However, this book is written in a unique format, which I LOVE. I cannot resist a book in a cool format, no matter what genre it is. I just haven’t managed to push myself all the way through it yet.
  • Dreamfall | Amy Plum – This series is about an insomniac girl who does an experiment with a bunch of other teens and they get trapped in a dark dream world. I haven’t heard literally anything about these books, but I have an eARC of the first one so I think I may give it a try. Plus, I sometimes enjoy things on the more horror-y side.
  • Cruel Prince | Holly Black – Holly Black and fae books are just a perfect match. She is basically an auto-buy author for me, and I hardly auto-buy anybody. I’m shocked that I haven’t read my ARC of this yet even though I managed to trade for it before it came out. Maybe I’ll read it for ARC August next month.
  • Strange the Dreamer | Laini Taylor – I’d really like to give these books a try, as I did really enjoy DOSAB, though I didn’t finish the series. I’m kind of intimidated by this series because STRANGE THE DREAMER is so enormous, but they have it at the library where I work, so I might give it a shot.
  • The Raven Cycle | Maggie Stiefvater – I put off this ultra popular series for a super long time because I HATED the Wolves of Mercy Falls books. I read SHIVER twice trying to understand the hype and I think I disliked it even more the second time around. However, THE RAVEN BOYS sounds more up my alley, and though I didn’t read it all the way through either time, I tried reading it twice and liked it a lot. The only downside is romance spoilers that I’ve gotten.

 

Which of these series do you think I should continue or start after I finish WILDCARD and RUIN AND RISING?

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WWW Wednesday \\ 7-25-18

WWW Wednesday is a book blog meme hosted by Taking On A World of Words where book bloggers answer these questions:

  • What are you currently reading?
  • What are you reading next?
  • What did you just finish reading?

 

Just Finished

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OMG. I finally read WARCROSS. I guess I shouldn’t say “finally” because it wasn’t like I’ve been dying to read it forever, since I only recently decided I needed to read it. But anyway, I’m SO happy I picked up this book and caved to the WILDCARD hype monster because I enjoyed it so much. I won’t say too much since I’m going to actually write a full review for once, so summary: I was not expecting to love this book and it far exceeded my expectations, and now I can’t wait to read my ARC of WILDCARD!

 

Currently Reading

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I am currently reading two books, or, at this moment in time, planning to be currently reading two books. The first is Naomi Novik’s UPROOTED, which recently caught my attention because of the release of SPINNING SILVER, plus I’m in the mood for fantasy. The second is going to maybe be the first Harry Potter book, as I have decided to reread the series if I can do it without getting too bored, though it’s been a LONG time since I read those books, so we’ll see.

 

Reading Next

I couldn’t pick just one book because I have so many I could read next. I just checked out STRANGE THE DREAMER from the library where I work, and also really want to finish the Grisha trilogy with RUIN AND RISING. However, as previously noted, I really cannot wait to read my WILDCARD ARC, though I might save that for mid-ARC August. We shall see.

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WWW Wednesday \\ 7-25-18

WWW Wednesday is a book blog meme hosted by Taking On A World of Words where book bloggers answer these questions:

  • What are you currently reading?
  • What are you reading next?
  • What did you just finish reading?

 

Just Finished

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OMG. I finally read WARCROSS. I guess I shouldn’t say “finally” because it wasn’t like I’ve been dying to read it forever, since I only recently decided I needed to read it. But anyway, I’m SO happy I picked up this book and caved to the WILDCARD hype monster because I enjoyed it so much. I won’t say too much since I’m going to actually write a full review for once, so summary: I was not expecting to love this book and it far exceeded my expectations, and now I can’t wait to read my ARC of WILDCARD!

 

Currently Reading

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I am currently reading two books, or, at this moment in time, planning to be currently reading two books. The first is Naomi Novik’s UPROOTED, which recently caught my attention because of the release of SPINNING SILVER, plus I’m in the mood for fantasy. The second is going to maybe be the first Harry Potter book, as I have decided to reread the series if I can do it without getting too bored, though it’s been a LONG time since I read those books, so we’ll see.

 

Reading Next

I couldn’t pick just one book because I have so many I could read next. I just checked out STRANGE THE DREAMER from the library where I work, and also really want to finish the Grisha trilogy with RUIN AND RISING. However, as previously noted, I really cannot wait to read my WILDCARD ARC, though I might save that for mid-ARC August. We shall see.

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Litsy App: First Impressions

As I discussed in this post, I have been struggling mightily with getting started on bookstagram. I’ve also been having problems keeping track of my unread books, but don’t really like the Goodreads app. So, I was very excited to discover the Litsy app by LibraryThing a couple of weeks ago. Litsy is basically Goodreads and bookstagram put together, with the ability to follow people, like, and comment on photos. You are also given a “litfluence” score, which is influenced by the number of books you add, the number of likes you give, comments, and people following you. As of the writing of this post, I’ve only been using the app for a couple of days, but I’m so excited about it that I want to write an initial reactions post already!

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also, my username is the same as this blog, @awordandawhisper.

So, here are some of my first impressions of Litsy:

  • Lower photo quality than bookstagram. I can’t decide if I like or dislike this about the app at this point. The photo aspect of Litsy seems much more casual and low-key than Instagram, where there are props galore and if you take a photo of a book on your couch it won’t get any likes probably. Litsy users seem to require fewer photography skills and it’s more like a photo diary of bookish moments. I realize I could do photos like these on Instagram, but I still feel like Insta is more “professional” and reliant on aesthetic and photography skills than Litsy so we’ll see.
  • It’s like a photo diary about books. As I just mentioned, Litsy is kind of like a digital diary about books with photos. You can review books, but you can also add a quote you like with or without images attached, or just a blurb about anything relating to a book.

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  • It’s hard to find people to follow. As of right now, they’re having a technical problem where you can’t search for other users. I also don’t know who’s on Litsy so I don’t know who to follow, and you can’t search by genre, and I mostly want to find more YA people, since that’s what I read. So, if you’re on Litsy, tell me and/or give me a follow so I can follow you back!!
  • It’s like the best aspects of Instagram and Twitter. Sometimes I wish I could divide my Insta into categories, like fashion and beauty, bujo, books, etc., so Litsy kind of lets me do that with at least my most favorite thing on Instagram, which is pictures of books! It’s also a bit like book twitter but without the garbage fire that Twitter usually is, at least thus far.
  • The ratings are much easier to decide on than Goodreads. I really don’t like star ratings very much, to be honest, especially since Goodreads doesn’t do half stars. On Litsy, the categories are essentially you liked the book, it was so-so, it was bad, or you didn’t finish it (at least that’s my interpretation of the hot air balloon icon rating). It makes adding ratings to books I add to the app very easy because there are fewer, more straightforward options rather than ambiguous stars, which mean something different for everyone.

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my writing process so far

Friends, it. Has. Happened. I kind of started writing a second draft of the half-novel I wrote for NaNoWriMo last year! I’ve talked about it a bit on the blog before as Queer Bookish Novel, as it is very queer and VERY bookish (the MC is a book blogger who is also a writer, and goes to what is essentially Book Expo).

After reading a lot of posts with writing advice on starting a novel and motivating yourself to do it, one of the first things I did was to make a spreadsheet of word count milestones with rewards that I would give myself when I reached them. One of my main issues with writing this novel has been motivation and discipline–I have ideas now, but it’s hard for me to make myself sit and actually write. I SO want to be able to call myself a writer, but even that doesn’t always motivate me enough to sit down and do it. Thus, the rewards sheet has been born. I’ve already reached my 1,000 word goal, too! Next stop, 5,000!

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My biggest struggle so far has been deciding whether or not to make this a grief story or just a bookish romance. I wanted to write about my own experience of having a friend die and putting that in the book, but with that, it feels like too much is going on. I’m also trying to prove to myself that not everything in my life has to be about her death, even though it still feels like it is sometimes. Still, I don’t want something in the story that just doesn’t go there or make it better.

I’m also worried that it’s too wish-fulfillment-y and not a real story. But that’s for another post and probably something I should try to put aside while I’m actually writing it.

I have also written a very basic outline of what I want to happen in my first ten chapters, which I’m considering the first act. The way I’m structuring it, based on some other people’s posts, is that one disaster happens at the end of act 2 and another happens at the end of act 3. Act 1 sets everything up, basically, and act 4 is the ending. I’m also guestimating word counts for each act to give me something to shoot for.

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Another thing I am having trouble with are character names. I can’t decide what to name the protagonist, and had trouble with the best friend love interest as well. Right now I’m debating changing the MC’s name from Lyle (yes, I know it’s an odd name for a girl), because one of the other love interest’s names also starts with L, and I don’t want it to be annoying to read or keep track of.

Honestly I’m at the stage where I don’t even know if I want to write this book. I don’t think anything can come of it since the audience would be so niche, and my first chapter is just horrible. I also still can’t decide whether I want to write the friend death or not. Basically, I am at a stage of extreme self doubt and am finding things hard. I have other novel ideas that I want to work on equally or more, but I’ve wanted to write this one for so long and have been ruminating on it for months so I feel like I have to see it through.

If you relate to any of these problems or have any comments or advice, please tell me because I probably could use it.

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things you might not know about me

It feels like time for a personal post, and honestly I enjoy writing personal blog posts that aren’t just about books, so here’s one to help you all get to know me a little better 🙂 I do a lot of personal discussion in my monthly wrap-up posts, so I’m going to try to pick things I don’t think I’ve written about before.

  1. Mel isn’t my real name. Shock and awe! I use Mel as my online name, mostly because it is a name I wish I had the courage to use in real life, partially because of my shifting gender identity stuff, but also because I just like it. It’s a nickname of my middle name, which is Melody. I once told a friend I wished I could be called Mel in real life, and they thought it really fit me, which was very sweet and affirming. I do wish I had the courage to ask people to use this name for me in real life because I think it fits me and I like it, but I don’t know that I ever will.
  2. I was once an editorial intern for Entangled Teen. For almost 2 years in college, I interned under author/senior editor Kate Brauning (y’all should go read her book HOW WE FALL; was v good) at Entangled Teen, an imprint of Macmillan. I have always had an interest in working in publishing and honestly still do, and it was one of the best experiences of my life. I loved editorial work, and I’m honestly still tempted to try other publishing internships just in case I ever had a chance at a job in publishing.
  3. I was born with congenital heart disease. I have something called a hemitruncus, and I couldn’t explain it to you if I tried because even though I’ve had it explained to me in various ways numerous times throughout my life, I can never remember precisely what it is. I got surgery for it at 10 weeks old and have a scar on my chest because of it and many trips to the cardiologist to my name. My heart has been fine since then other than my fast heartbeat condition, but I’ve had no physical problems with it since the surgery, fortunately. It’s not something I actually share with a lot of people, and I don’t really know why that is. I’m not embarrassed or ashamed of it, but I don’t feel any real connection to it because it’s never effected me, I suppose.
  4. In college, I was a double major in music performance and gender studies. And no, the two literally never melded because we basically only talked about male composers in music theory other than Nadia Boulanger. I majored in classical performance for flute, but honestly don’t play anymore, though I might be happier if I did. I also played violin for a while as a kid and experimented with it again last year and really enjoyed it, but I just haven’t been playing music at all since I moved out of my parents’ house. I also loved gender studies and was super fascinated by it (plus my advisor was super cool and smart and REALLY attractive, so that was a nice plus lol), but I haven’t found something to do with that career-wise yet other than my commitment to working in diverse library systems and communities.
  5. I have pink hair! I don’t post any pictures of myself on the blog for some reason and don’t do many where I’m not behind a book mostly on my instagram, so probably nobody knows this, but my hair is pink! I have almost always had short hair and it is in a pixie cut. I love my pink hair and it just makes me so happy. It’s really the only thing I like about myself physically. One of my bosses wants me to make it pinker so I am more noticeable because I am generally shy, and I would certainly like to do that. Pink hair for the win! Woohoo!

 

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^that’s me!

That’s it! Did any of these things surprise you? Are there any fellow bloggers out there with heart stuff? Is it weird that I don’t use my real name on my blog?

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If We Were Having Coffee 7-20-18

If We Were Having Coffee (or, If We Were Having Tea in my version, since I don’t drink coffee) is a feature I like to do occasionally (okay, almost every month) to check in and see how I’m doing with books and things other than books. It is inspired by a post I found on the website of a blogger I used to follow.

So, here’s the third (I think??) round:

 

If we were having tea…I’d tell you I just started the Grisha trilogy and am LOVING it. I can’t believe I waited so long to read these books. I think the hype freaked me out, but the hype is SO. RIGHT. I think Alina is a very interesting character, though if she ends up with the Darkling I’m going to be very upset because he TRIED TO CONTROL HER AND USE HER FOR EVIL and I do not think he is redeemable. Plus I am a Mal fan. I don’t know if I’m liking Siege and Storm as well as Shadow and Bone, but I like the pirate ship setting and the addition of lots of cool new characters.

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If we were having tea…I’d also tell you I’m feeling a bit reading slumpy? Not a full-blown slump since I still want to read, but I’m not feeling as motivated to read lately while I’m at work, which is where I do most of my reading.

If we were having tea…I’d encourage you all to join me in participating in the 24in48 Readathon this weekend!!!!! It’s the first readathon I’ve been able to participate in in a while, and I’m SO looking forward to curling up with my books, my cats, and my bae this weekend and pounding through some amazing books! I love 24-hour readathons, so I think I’m going to try to get most of my hours done on my first day. I’m planning to stock up on caffeinated beverages, make some readathon cake, and drink a lot of tea.

If we were having tea…I’d let you know that my mental health seems to finally be improving! Most of these posts (and my monthly wrap-ups) have been really depressing probably because I’ve been really depressed and suicidal recently. But I’m on new meds and they seem to be working…for now, anyway.

If we were having tea…I’d tell you that the heart problem I was having (elevated heart rate) has also been taken care of with the help of some new beta blockers I was prescribed, and I’ve been feeling LOADS better and no longer feel like passing out frequently at work.

If we were having tea…I’d say I’ve been feeling inspired to start working on my novel more seriously lately. I’ve been working on an outline and fleshing out my story so I don’t stop halfway through again. The problem now is that I don’t know if I want it to include a particular sad element or not or if I want it just to be a romance. I feel like the story wants to be a pure queer romance, but I feel weird about writing something that’s just romance for some reason? idk why. I guess I have it in my head that it needs to be a certain way and I’m scared of letting go of my original idea of it. Here’s my novel aesthetic (I am very terrible at aesthetics):

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