a triumph, a conquering \\ may rewind

I DID IT!! I survived May with flying freaking colors. I was so super stressed this month about everything but I DID IT and I am ALIVE and it is OVER and I had adventures and learned new things and it was actually not bad at all. So, without further ado, here is what went down in May:

what happened

  • I WENT TO BOOK EXPO!!!! When I started writing this post I honestly had to think really hard of all the stuff that happened other than going to Book Expo because that was so huge for me. I wouldn’t even have been able to go a year ago because my anxiety was so bad, so it really felt like a major accomplishment that I could even consider going to Book Expo this year. I got a few books, met some cool authors, and survived NYC without crying for the first time ever. I honestly don’t know that I’d go again, but it was a huge privilege and honor to be able to go and I’m super proud of myself for being able to do it.
  • I had my first big outreach event for the library. Outreach to the community is probably the biggest challenge for me being a librarian with anxiety because I am generally scared of talking to people I don’t know. Selling library services to the community is something I also haven’t had a lot of practice with, so when I had to go to a major convention in the city where I work to promote our own convention event, I was nervous to say the least. BUT I managed to successfully talk to over 60 people in two days and was not nearly as anxious at the actual event as I thought I’d be. So that is also an accomplishment I am proud of.
  • I started feeling better about my job. I’ve gone through a lot of emotions over being a librarian, and honestly I still don’t know if I don’t like being a librarian at my particular library or if I just don’t like being a librarian. After this month though, I’m starting to think that maybe I do like some parts of librarianship, and one of my coworkers said she thinks I owe it to myself to figure out if I’d like being a librarian somewhere else more. I know I want to work just with kids and teens because I do not enjoy working with adults at all, so I think I need to find somewhere where I can work with kids more than adults. I definitely go through a lot of periods of flat out hating my job, but I don’t know if that’s normal or if it means I don’t like what I do. But right now I’m feeling a lot better about being a librarian in general and I feel like I’m getting a lot better at the job itself. I think that someday, maybe even soon, I will be a GREAT librarian, and not just a good one.


what i read

I managed to read 9 books this month, probably because 3 of them were poetry and of those, 2 were rereads. I reread MILK & HONEY and THE PRINCESS SAVES HERSELF IN THIS ONE for the first week of The Artist’s Way when I decided to be a poet for a week. I also read WILD EMBERS for that. WILD EMBERS was kind of a mixed bag for me; there were some poems I liked but overall it was not super memorable other than some of the prose about goddesses and fairytales. I will definitely be reading the other Nikita Gill collection I have called FIERCE FAIRYTALES though, since the fairytales were my favorite part of WILD EMBERS.

I read a lot of really excellent books this month, but my favorites were definitely I WANNA BE WHERE YOU ARE and THE RIGHT SWIPE. I WANNA BE WHERE YOU ARE totally swept me away and was super addicting, I shipped the ship so freaking much, and the writing was completely excellent. This is the kind of contemporary that I used to LOVE, and I absolutely adored it and was reminded whey I love contemporary books. I also loved THE RIGHT SWIPE and thought the concept of two dating app people was really cute, and really related to Rhiannon’s struggle with her past emotionally abusive relationship. This book made me feel so seen for my experience with similar issues, and in addition to that Samson was just such a great Big Softie boy and I loved him so so much.


around the blogosphere

  • I found Holly’s post with 5 questions to help get rid of books super useful
  • I loved Chaima’s review of Like A Love Story and now need to read that book even more
  • Elise broke down how she organizes her blogging and regular life in a great post
  • CW gave some tips for those of you who want to diversify your reading list
  • Nandini offered some advice on how to better fit reading into your daily schedule
  • Kelly asked if tropes are really as bad as we think
  • Kristen wrote about some things she’d like to see more of in YA fiction


writing updates

omg I…can actually have a writing section this month? I kind of wrote stuff in May because I decided to be a poet for a week, which was the most useful exercise I could’ve done for my writing. I read and reread some poetry, and whenever I read poetry I want to write my own, so I did. I feel kind of inspired to share some on some form of social media. I’ve heard of some poets getting their start on Instagram or Tumblr. I feel like Tumblr might be a better avenue for me because I am not a very visual person and have never been able to maintain an Instagram. I know I don’t HAVE to share my work, but it might be motivational to share it. BUT anyway…I wrote poems! Go me!



  • Spotify. I’ve been listening to various playlists on Spotify for the past couple months because I have been bored of the music I have, so I like discovering new stuff via playlists.
  • The Wayward Children series. I just started the Wayward Children books by Seanan McGuire after seeing them all over the blogosphere for YEARS, and OMG, I was seriously missing out. As of the writing of this post, I’m on book 1, but I’m sure I’ll be done by the time this post goes up. It’s so magical and weird and wacky and I love this series so far and can’t wait to read more about Jack and Jill in book 2.

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  1. Aww thank you so much for sharing my post, love! I’m so happy to hear that Book Expo and the Outreach Event for your Library both went really well! <3 It sounds like you had an incredible month, and I hope you're currently enjoying your job! I prefer working with kids and teens whenever I volunteer for anything, so I completely understand the feeling! 🙂

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