This is the question writers face every November: to NaNo or not to NaNo? NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month, can be a time of great stress, since the idea is to write 50,000 words in just one month, but can also be a time of great productivity. I have done a couple NaNo events. I did Camp NaNo in April 2016 and met my word count goal of 25,000, and last year I did regular NaNo and wrote 25,000 words but gave up after that because I was so behind. Now it is getting down to time to decide if I’m doing NaNo again, so I am today going to dissect some pros and cons of doing NaNo.
I have multiple project ideas.
I actually?? Have ideas?? For once?? I have about 3 different ideas floating around in my head, including the one that I started last year. I could pick any one of them, or I guess do multiples if I wanted to be really crazy, though perhaps NaNo isn’t the time for that.
I don’t *have* to do 50,000 words.
I know that’s the goal of NaNo, but I could stop pressuring myself to do NaNo the “right” way and just use it as a time to plan out a novel or write a number of words I choose for myself. I don’t have to put immense amounts of pressure on myself like I do all the time and try to do it the “right” way, because nobody is going to put a gun to my head and demand that I write all 50,000 words for NaNo. I can do it however I want.
I recently dreamed up an idea that I feel very inspired by currently.
I literally had a dream about a writing idea, which honestly happens to me often, but this time I actually remembered it? And, as I have been thinking about it since then, it has gotten more and more fleshed out in my head.
I know I’ll put too much pressure on myself.
Recently, I’ve been doing this thing to myself where I put so much pressure on myself to do things perfectly that I end up not doing them because I know nothing can be perfect. This can be as simple as watching movies until late at night and reading and not doing it because I know my bedtime is earlier than it used to be because I have no energy anymore. For NaNo, I’m really worried and already stressed about not being able to do a full 50,000 words and still counting it as NaNo.
I could rewrite and finish my queer bookish WIP.
You know, that QUEENS OF GEEK x INKHEART story I’m always talking about on here that I haven’t actually written any of since last November? Yeah, that one. I could use NaNo to rewrite the first half because it’s a mess and work on that specific book, because I do think I’m meant to write that story.
I’m worried about making time for writing.
I know in my head I do have time I could make for writing, but I’m still worried about not getting to do other things, even though outside of work I honestly don’t do that much. However, since I always get up early, I know I could make time in the morning to write, since that is my preferred writing time anyway.
I’m worried about actually writing.
Like…what if I can’t do it anymore? Or don’t like it as much anymore? I know these things probably aren’t true, but I’ve psyched myself out of writing for so long (almost a year, to be exact) that I’m scared I’m just not a writer anymore. I mean, I already feel like I’m not a writer anymore because I feel like I’ve given up on writing at all since last November. I’m just worried I’m a fraud and I can’t really do it.
So…still not sure if I should do NaNo. I kinda want to do it, am kinda stressed about it already, but also kinda want to use it to just explore some of my writing ideas and see which ones are viable. I’m mostly worried that I’m a fraud who won’t be able to write anymore after so long, and that my ideas are stupid. So you may see a post soon of some of my ideas for NaNo asking if they are stupid because apparently I need validation. Anyway. –end ramble post–