If We Were Having Coffee is a personal blog post feature that I discovered via one of my favorite book blogs back when it was a book blog *throws a leaf’s worth of shade* It’s an opportunity to both share things about yourself with your readers and check in and reflect. Since I don’t drink coffee though, all my points are going to be “if we were having tea” because tea is better and more tasty and…just better.
if we were having tea…I’d tell you I’m rereading ACOMAF in preparation to finally read ACOWAR in preparation for ACOFAS and that I’m enjoying it. I don’t remember everything from ACOTAR so it gets a little confusing so far, but I’m absorbing much more from the book this time around so hopefully I won’t feel so lost in ACOWAR when I go for it again.
if we were having tea…I’d tell you I’m really sad that I’m working tomorrow because I REALLY want to do Dewey’s Read-A-Thon, which I do almost every time. I’m going to try to do some reading at work since I’m allowed to and read most of the night, but I’m worried I’ll be too tired the next day and then tired for work on Monday.
if we were having tea…I’d admit I’m having trouble with work-life balance. Working as a teen librarian is my first full-time job and it’s very hard to adjust to after part-time work and continuing to be a student. I feel like all I do is work, eat dinner, and go to sleep, with very little time for fun things, and I worry that fun things even like doing a 24 hour read a thon will tire me out too much, even though I know I’ll catch up on the sleep eventually and it won’t be the end of the world to be tired.
if we were having tea…I’d probably cry a little and say that my newish (as of February) apartment still doesn’t really feel like home. I feel like everything is always a mess because I’m messy but then I look at the mess no matter how small and feel so anxious and overwhelmed by it that I avoid it and it creates more mess and it’s just an endless vicious cycle. I’d also say the kittens stressing me out is contributing to it because I want to just love them and shower them with affection but they’re so rambunctious and naughty because they are babies and all I feel toward them right now is stress, so it’s good that my boy is there often to not yell at them and shower them with only love. I’m worried they don’t like me because I tell them not to do things and kick them off the counter.
if we were having tea…I’d tell you I started reading From Twinkle, With Love and thus far am…disappointed. Twinkle’s voice reads REALLY juvenile and she’s just very annoying. I like the format, but I am having trouble getting into it because I’m not a Twinkle fan even though her name is the best.
if we were having tea…I’d tell you I’m really happy that I’ve been interacting more with the new blogging community. I used to be really scared to comment on other people’s blogs, but I feel like I have to do that to get noticed and also to feel fulfilled in my blogging life, because I used to feel so isolated and not part of the bookish community. Now, even though my newest blog is small in terms of followers and views, I feel like I’m more connected because I get and give comments more often, even from bloggers I really like. I feel like the new bloggers are much more open and friendly than the people I used to idolize and look up to, and I feel they are much more my peers than I people I used to be into.
if we were having tea…I’d say I’ve been a little depressed because of the lack of doing fun things and not doing other things I enjoy, like playing music or writing. I want to do these things but can’t seem to find the motivation, especially writing, even though I think doing it would really help me because I always feel more positive and happy when I’m working on a new writing project. I think it’s partially fear of failure, but also I just can’t find the motivation to just sit down and actually write even though I really want to. Not doing anything creative (other than blogging I guess) is really taking a toll on me and I need to do something about it, I just don’t know how.
What would you tell me if we sat down and had a tea party (cucumber sandwiches included)?