October was…okay, I guess? Nothing particularly bad happened. It went fine. There were no major disasters to report. I guess the only interesting thing that happened is that I applied to two other jobs. One didn’t work out because they hired on a rolling basis and were working toward hiring someone else right as they were going to interview me, which is disappointing because it was a really cool job, but it’s okay. The other is a collection development position for children’s at the library where I currently work, and I so so so so so hope I at least get a chance to interview because collection development (which is basically choosing what books the library purchases) is my passion and my favorite thing about librarianship, and I would love to read and choose children’s books. So, fingers crossed that they at least want to interview me.
Other than that, I’ve really been stuck in a rut with…basically everything. I’m not really enjoying anything I used to enjoy, and not letting myself enjoy things either, for some weird reason. I don’t even really enjoy reading at the moment. Every time I pick up a book, I force myself to slug through it but I don’t enjoy the process of reading. I don’t enjoy most other things I used to either, like playing my flute and violin or watching children’s and horror movies/shows back to back. I feel like my life has been sucked of all fun. I’m fine mental health wise, but I just feel so bored most of the time because none of the things I typically enjoy doing have been giving me enjoyment.
I’m tempted to not read for the entire month of November to give myself a break, but I can’t imagine just not reading for a long time again. I wish I could figure out why I’m not enjoying things as much, but I guess that’s what I have a therapist for.
What I Read
1. Sawkill Girls – Claire Legrand
2. What If It’s Us – Becky Albertalli & Adam Silvera
3. We Have Always Lived in the Castle – Shirley Jackson
4. Wildcard – Marie Lu
5. Jonesy #1 – Sam Humphries
6. Jonesy #2 – Sam Humphries
I think my favorite books were WE HAVE ALWAYS LIVED IN THE CASTLE, WHAT IF IT’S US, and WILDCARD. I didn’t love WILDCARD *as* much as I expected because I read it when I was still feeling slumpy and rut-y, but it did not disappoint at all. I ended up loving WHAT IF IT’S US even though I was apprehensive about it. I also adored WE HAVE ALWAYS LIVED IN THE CASTLE and want to hug Merricat and Jonas. I also did something weird for me and gave a graphic novel a try. JONESY is super cute and I will for sure be recommending it to teens. I wish I could be Jonesy.
My most disappointing read was unfortunately SAWKILL GIRLS, which I was hoping would be queer feminist horror perfection, but it was slow and weird and mostly slow. Even when they found a severed hand in the woods I was just…not moved. Am I heartless? Perhaps…
So it was a good reading month even if I wasn’t really enjoying reading too much by the end.
I now have 226 followers! My following is growing slowly but steadily, and I am very pleased that within half a year of blogging I have almost as many followers as I got after five years the first time around. I continue to enjoy reading and responding to people’s comments on my blog and other people’s blogs. The current bookish community is just so kind and welcoming and I am really grateful for that.
…why do I have this section? I always struggle to come up with answers for it. Maybe I’ll get rid of it next month…
- My new hair color! I changed my hair from cotton candy pink to a burgundy color that’s very heavy on the purple, and at first I wasn’t sure about it because I loved the pink so much, but now I really like it and think it’s perfect for fall. And probably most seasons.
- Tumblr. I am now a Tumblr addict once again. I have two blogs, one main and one side, and I enjoy browsing it immensely.
- Minimalist Art journals. I discovered a new journal brand that makes perfect bullet journals and they’re only about $11 on Amazon. I love the Leuchtrrum (I know I butchered that spelling) but those are $25 and I use multiple journals for multiple purposes, so I can’t drop $25 every time I need a new journal.