For those who don’t know, the Artist’s Way is a course developed by creative Julia Cameron to restore your creativity. My goal with this course is to feel more comfortable being creative.
This week, I’m going to go straight into the check-in questions:
- How many days this week did you do your morning pages? How was the experience for you?
I did the morning pages every day but one, I think. I think one day I overslept and went straight to an appointment instead of doing them. The morning pages are becoming a very soothing activity even though I’m realizing a lot of things about myself through them that is making me uncomfortable.
2. Did you do your artist date this week? What did you do? How did it feel?
I did do my artist date this week, and I actually went out for it. I went to Target to get some hangers for my closet, but ended up buying two books and also a stuffed animal called a squishmallow that is indeed very squishy. It was really nice to let myself buy something silly that was just for my own pleasure and joy and comfort. Money can’t buy happiness, but it can buy a squishmallow!
3. Did you experience any synchronicity this week? What was it?
I did not.
4. Were there any other issues significant to your recovery that appeared this week? Describe them.
Honestly, I’m starting to realize that maybe for now, writing isn’t what I want to do to be creative. I went into The Artist’s Way expecting that it would make me want to write again, but in reality, I’m realizing I want a break from forcing myself to try to write when I’m not ready, and do something else that’s creative. This week, I started exploring the idea of starting a booktube and learning ukulele and songwriting again, because both of those things sound more fun than writing to me right now. I feel a little guilty and as though I’m giving up on writing, but if it’s not what I want to do to be creative right now and this is a course about finding your own creativity, then there’s no point in continuing to force myself to try to do it just to make myself feel bad when I can’t make myself write. I still want to do something creative in my free time, but maybe I can open myself up to the possibility of doing things other than writing that will make me just as happy or happier.