If you’ve followed me for long enough, you know that I LOVE setting goals for myself in my monthly goals posts. When 2020 started, I was super pumped to write out my yearly goals and make some changes in my life but also be reasonable about what I wanted to do throughout the year to improve myself. I have a habit of making lofty goals without knowing what I’ll have to do for them to actually achieve them.
A lot has been happening these past couple months in the world and in my life and I’ve been feeling like I need to revisit the goals I made at the beginning of the year and see which ones are still working for me and which ones I am no longer interested in working towards. So, today’s post will focus on evaluating how I’m doing on my initial 2020 goals so far and making changes to ones that are not working out. Without further ado, let’s get started:
- Feature more new books. I still really want to do this, but I’m doing really badly at it so far because I’m still reading super slowly. Keep? Yes.
- Start doing week-long features of books. I’ve done two of these so far and really enjoyed it and definitely want to keep doing it. Keep? Yes.
- Review more. Lol. Making this goal and attempting to review made me realize I do not like writing traditional reviews, so this is not a great goal for me. Keep? No.
- Enjoy reading again. I feel like actually making this a goal has made me weirdly feel more pressured by reading which is in turn not helping me enjoy reading again. Keep? No.
- Read more queer books. I am doing okay at this but still feel like I need to read more queer books. I also started my own readathon for queer books that I feel like I’m failing at and really should’ve thought through more. But, keep? Yes.
- Read more children’s books. I am doing super well with this, but want to start reading more MG books. I read tons of picture books every month because I have to for storytime planning, but don’t read a lot of MG for older kids or chapter books. Keep? Yes.
- Participate in ARCApocalypse 2020. I really wanted to participate in Destiny’s reading challenge dedicated to knocking ARCs off your list and set a goal of knocking out 30 ARCs even though my reading goal for the year was only 25 books. So maybe this goal was a little lofty. Keep? No.
- Read what I’m in the mood for and when I’m in the mood. I have not been doing a good job of this because I feel like I’m a bad reader if I’m not reading or if I take an extended break from reading. Having any goal relating to how I read really stresses me out and makes me feel pressure and makes me enjoy reading less. Keep? No.
- Read all/most of my most anticipated releases. I haven’t been reading a lot of new stuff so I’m not doing that well on this goal as of yet, but I still have hope for myself. So, keep? Yes.
- Make the apartment feel more like home. I mean since I’m stuck here a lot now I guess this has been accomplished.
- Continue being positive. I feel like I’m doing okay with this and want to keep it as a reminder to myself. Keep? Yes.
- Come out at work. I have done this.
- Be neater and more organized. This has not been done yet, but there’s still time? But, keep? No.
- Find self-care things I enjoy other than reading. I don’t know how to achieve this goal, so Keep? TBD.
- Get more confident in my job. Am working on this
- Read more children’s books. See above
- Do more professional development activities. Am doing super well at this.
- Be more positive while at work. Am failing at this, because I don’t think this job is for me and I’m frustrated that I’m stuck there.
- Keep track of my spending. Am doing this more. keep? Yes.
- Find a good budgeting method. Am working on this. Keep? yes.
- Save more money. Am not doing well at this but will start. Keep? yes.
- Start getting steps again. Achieved.
- Drink more water. Mostly achieving.
- Drink less caffeine. Keep? No.
- Take better care of myself via appointments. Am doing well at this.
- Eat out less. lol, that is about to be imposed upon me.
Looking at this list, I got exhausted just writing down all these goals, to be honest. I think a problem I have that I need to reign in is that I make too many goals and don’t think about what the most essential ones I want to accomplish that will genuinely improve my life are or how exactly I’ll measure or accomplish them. Being in isolation is honestly making me take a look at how I spend my time and making me rethink what I genuinely want to put effort into.
I think a good step for me would be to prioritize my goals based on importance and also think about whether each goal is something I want to be doing or something I feel like I SHOULD be doing. The BULLET JOURNAL METHOD book has a really useful exercise that I think would work for this and help me pare down my goals to what I actually want to achieve. For someone who likes setting goals, I really need to get better at setting them and figuring out how to measure them.
New activity while in quarantine: prioritize goals. Woohoo!