books I’m nervous about reading

Many of us have probably downloaded or requested books that we are initially excited about, and then become unsure if we want to read. This can happen because of reviews, lack of or too much buzz around the book, our own personal misgivings, or any variety of reasons. Today, I’m going to be sharing 6 books that I am a bit nervous about reading even though I requested them out of interest initially.




A girl who can speak to gods must save her people without destroying herself.

A prince in danger must decide who to trust.

A boy with a monstrous secret waits in the wings.

Together, they must assassinate the king and stop the war.

In a centuries-long war where beauty and brutality meet, their three paths entwine in a shadowy world of spilled blood and mysterious saints, where a forbidden romance threatens to tip the scales between dark and light. Wicked Saints is the thrilling start to Emily A. Duncan’s devastatingly Gothic Something Dark and Holy trilogy.

I know, I know: I should be thrilled to have been granted an eARC of this book. And I am! It’s probably the most anticipated book of 2019 thus far other than THE WICKED KING. Everyone wants this book. But that’s one of the reasons I’m so nervous about reading it! I now give into the hype monster fairly easily, but then I always put more pressure on myself to like those books. What if I don’t love this one?? Am I a bad bookworm? (No, but still!) Also, there’s not very much synopsis, so I don’t really know what I’m going into other than something about gods and monsters and war. So I feel like I’m going in blind.



The sequel to THE BELLES.

I am definitely reading this one, but I am worried because I initially had very mixed feelings about THE BELLES. I liked the writing (sometimes) but some parts of the story were predictable to me and I wasn’t sure why she picked the narrator she did to narrate and not Edel, who seemed more interesting. Still, THE BELLES stayed with me a lot after finishing it, and I have ultimately decided to read this book. Hopefully I like it more than book one.



After the death of her sister, seventeen-year-old Violet Saunders finds herself dragged to Four Paths, New York. Violet may be a newcomer, but she soon learns her mother isn’t: They belong to one of the revered founding families of the town, where stone bells hang above every doorway and danger lurks in the depths of the woods. Justin Hawthorne’s bloodline has protected Four Paths for generations from the Gray-a lifeless dimension that imprisons a brutal monster. After Justin fails to inherit his family’s powers, his mother is determined to keep this humiliation a secret. But Justin can’t let go of the future he was promised and the town he swore to protect. Ever since Harper Carlisle lost her hand to an accident that left her stranded in the Gray for days, she has vowed revenge on the person who abandoned her: Justin Hawthorne. There are ripples of dissent in Four Paths, and Harper seizes an opportunity to take down the Hawthornes and change her destiny-to what extent, even she doesn’t yet know. The Gray is growing stronger every day, and its victims are piling up. When Violet accidentally unleashes the monster, all three must band together with the other Founders to unearth the dark truths behind their families’ abilities… before the Gray devours them all.

What I’m getting from this very involved synopsis is a mysterious death, a weird town, a monster, a weird place, and magic powers. I’m not sure if I’ll end up reading this one because I still honestly don’t understand what it’s even about?? If I’m losing my place just while reading the synopsis, that does not bode well for the book.



The deeply secretive Black Coats have been exacting vengeance on men who hurt girls and women for years. And Thea has just received an invitation to join them. This is the opportunity she’s been waiting for to finally get justice for her cousin Natalie, whose killer went free.

Thea dives head first into the group, training every day with other girls whose stories rival hers. Together they carry out Balancings—acts of revenge guaranteed to teach a lesson. With every predator threatened, every blackmailer exposed, and every date rapist punished, Thea can feel herself getting closer to avenging Natalie’s death.

But then the Balancings begin to escalate in brutality, and Thea discovers that the Black Coats are not all they seem to be. Thea must confront just how far she’s willing to go for justice—and what kind of justice Natalie, and Thea herself, deserve. Because when the line between justice and revenge is razor thin, it’s hard not to get cut.

I’m not sure what to think about this one anymore. At first I was like VIGILANTE GIRL JUSTICE YESSS but now I think it sounds a bit simplistic and juvenile in a weird way, and am also worried that it will be upsetting to read about because it mentions date rape in just the summary, and I can’t do rape or sexual assault because of my PTSD. So this one may end up being knocked off my TBR pile. We’ll see.



Three screws in her hip.
Two months until spring training.
One answer to all her problems.

Mickey Catalan is no stranger to the opioid epidemic in her small town. There are obituaries of classmates who “died suddenly” and stories of overdoses in gas station bathrooms—but none of that is her. No, Mickey is a star softball catcher—one part of a dynamic duo with her best friend and pitcher Carolina—about to start her senior season with hopes of college recruitment. Until a car accident shatters that plan, along with her hip and Carolina’s arm.

Now Mickey is hurting. She can barely walk, much less crouch behind the plate. Yet a little white pill can make it better. After all, it is doctor prescribed. But when the prescription runs out, Mickey turns to an elderly woman who pushes hot meatloaf and a baggie full of oxy across the kitchen counter. It’s there Mickey makes new friends—other athletes in pain, others with just time to kill—and finds peaceful acceptance, a place where she can find words more easily than she ever has before. But as the pressure to be Mickey Catalan heightens, her desire for pills becomes less about pain and more about want, something that could send her spiraling out of control.

I REALLY liked Mindy McGinnis’ THIS DARKNESS MINE, and have been looking forward to another book by her for a while. However, I am not super into YA books about drugs because I find them preachy no matter what they do, and to be honest kind of boring. I’m not sure if I’ll end up reading this one or not.




Hana isn’t supposed to exist. She’s grown up hidden by her mother in a secret room of the bioship Cyclo until the day her mother is simply gone—along with the entire crew. Cyclo tells her she was abandoned, but she’s certain her mother wouldn’t leave her there to die. And Hana isn’t ready to die yet. She’s never really had a chance to live.

Fenn is supposed to die. He and a crew of hired mercenaries are there to monitor Cyclo as she expires, and the payment for the suicide mission will mean Fenn’s sister is able to live. But when he meets Hana, he’s not sure how to save them both.

As Cyclo grows sicker by the day, they unearth more secrets about the ship and the crew. But the more time they spend together, the more Hana and Fenn realize that falling for each other is what could ultimately kill them both.

I have been looking forward to another Lydia Kang YA since reading THE NOVEMBER GIRL last year. However, sci-fi, ESPECIALLY space sci-fi, is really not my thing. I have hated every space YA book I’ve tried to read except the Lunar Chronicles. Still, I’m tempted because it’s by an author I liked before. Really, really not sure about reading this one at the moment though.

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  1. Ahh, I really hope you’ll enjoy the sequel to The Belles – I’m impatient to read that one 🙂 I’m also curious to hear your thoughts about The Devouring Gray. This book sounds strange, but also very intriguing 😀

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