astrothon: what I read

Astrothon was a week-long readathon hosted by Fey of Fey’s Bookish World, whose post on Instagram directed me to this event. All of the prompts were based on the solar system. My goal was to read 3 books for this ‘thon, which I accomplished! You can also use the same book for up to two prompts twice, so I did that a couple times as well.

Here’s what I read:

sun: finish a book in 24 hours

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I read this book while subbing for another librarian at one of our tiniest library branches. It was not a good pick for reading in public because it made me want to cry numerous times. On top of being emotional because of the abuse, it made me want to cry because of all the music stuff, which as a musician (former musician???? I don’t play much anymore. or at all, really), made me want to cry happy tears, and Beck was so soft and precious and made me want to cry, and it was Cait’s book which made me want to cry EVEN MORE. Basically, my reaction to this book was a bucket of uncried tears. The writing in this book was so so good and exactly as amazing as I expected it to be, the story was super gut punching and emotional, and I just…sigh. This book, y’all.

 

mercury: a book with an important message

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venus: a book by a female author

 

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I was hoping to feel seen by this book because of my own weight struggles, and I did, somewhat at least. It’s about a girl whose mom just got off of this extreme weight loss show and is obsessed with healthy eating and controlling her daughter’s eating as well. I think the main messages behind this book is that there is more than one way to be healthy, and what’s important is being in control of your body and how you feel about it. Savvy is in control of what she puts into her body and likes herself how she is, but her mom, even after the extreme weight loss, is ridiculously out of control and still hates herself. Both are important messages. Plus, this one had a cute, sassy romance and a great sister relationship that both made my heart happy. This one also almost made me cry while on desk though, so basically, I really need to stop reading sad books while at work. Though I guess since I’m in a library, people might be a bit more understanding over a librarian crying over a book they’re reading.

 

pluto: a book written in a nontraditional format

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uranus: a character with a cold demeanor

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Nice Try, Jane Sinner is about a recent high school dropout, Jane, who goes on a reality show in order to move out of her parents’ house while she attends community college and tries to get her life together. Now, I read a REALLY early draft of this when I was an editorial intern, and I thought it was pretty good then, and I am so happy to see someone eventually published it because it is so good. I loved the diary and script formatting and thought it made the story flow perfectly. I wasn’t expecting to see myself represented in this book even though Jane has depression, but I did. I felt like if my depression could talk, it would speak with Jane’s voice, which is biting, borderline cruel, and sassy as hell. Reading this book actually made me realize that one of the reasons I find it hard to see myself as a nice person even though everyone thinks I am one is because the voice of my depression is so loud and mean. Seeing my depression in this light made me think that the depression is what makes me think I’m mean, even though the reality could actually be totally different.

This book ended up meaning a lot to me in weird ways that I wasn’t expecting, plus it was just a great, well-written story that I will be recommending to everyone I know.

 

 

popular books I still haven’t read // ft. me being terrible

All book lovers have books on their TBR lists they are ashamed that they haven’t read yet. Today, I’m going to share a whole post of those, all of books that are popular among YA people that I have yet to read.

 

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I actually do have this one on my Kindle, and I’m kind of contemplating reading it for the series book prompt of Astrothon. I am still embarrassed that I haven’t read these ultra-popular books yet even though in this case I do know why I haven’t read them. At the time they came out, I was just starting to outgrow juvenile fantasy and get really into contemporary YA, so this one just slipped into the cracks of unread books. However, I do really want to read this because I am starting to love fantasy again, and also everyone gushes about Leigh Bardugo and I always feel left out for not having read it.

 

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This one I’m less ashamed of not having read yet, because I have tried it twice! I was so so excited for this one even though it’s space sci-fi, which is a genre I usually steer far, FAR away from, because it’s written in a quirky format, which is a thing I LOVE. I’ve been tempted to give it away a few times, but something has stopped me, and maybe someday I’ll get past the first 100 pages.

 

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I avoided this one for the longest time because I HATED Maggie Stiefvater’s SHIVER series with a burning, fiery passion. I started reading this one a while ago because of all the hype, and I did actually like it, but dropped it for some reason. I also felt like I had to own all of the books before I started the series, because I have a feeling I’m going to like them and want to be able to read the whole series without waiting to buy the other books.

 

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I really can’t believe I haven’t read this yet. All the reviews I read of it are GLOWING, and I did like the Lunar Chronicles alright. Alice retellings are my absolute favorite though, so I was really excited to buy this when it first came out. Hopefully I’ll read it soon.

 

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I’ve only read one thing by Marie Lu because I was getting out of dystopian fiction when the Legend books started coming out, liked YOUNG ELITES okay, but not enough to continue the series. I only recently started getting interested in WARCROSS because of all the hype about WILDCARD ARCs coming out, and I’ve decided I want to give it another try. Sci-fi isn’t typically my thing, but I feel like I should make an effort to read Marie Lu since everyone loves her.

 

What are some popular books that you haven’t read yet? Which of these should I try out first?

my bookstagram thoughts (aka strugglz)

I’ve talked a little on the blog about my bookstagram attempts. I started a bookstagram a while ago here  because I wanted to experiment with a new hobby, and I thought photography might be something fun. I love all the bookstagrams I follow and thought that doing one would be feasible, since I am passionate about books and therefore would enjoy photographing them.

However, starting a bookstagram has not been as easy or rewarding or enjoyable as I thought it would be. Here are some of the reasons I’ve been struggling with it:

  • Lack of a good camera. I only have a phone camera to work with, which apparently people can do, but I can’t take a variety of types of photos with it like I would want to. I also have limited editing capabilities because of this. I’d really like a DSLR camera, but those are expensive and I’m worried about spending a ton of money on something that I’m just starting out doing. I have a couple lower-end digital cameras on my wishlist, but the one I most want is upwards of $400 because it comes with a bunch of other stuff like cool lenses and different memory cards and a tripod, which I really want so I can take better photos of myself or of other things at better angles. But again, it’s a lot of money and I’m worried about spending so much on something I might not end up liking. But without it, I also don’t have much of a chance of experimenting because all I have is my phone. It is dillematic.
  • Not enough physical copies. Most of the ARCs I read are eARCs, and I had to leave half of my physical collection of books at home when I moved, which was very sad. I honestly don’t even have enough shelf space in my apartment to store all the books anyway. But not having a lot of physical copies means not a ton of variety in my bookstagram pictures. Most bookstagrammers seem to have hundreds of books, and I definitely do not have hundreds of books. I could probably afford to buy more books if I wanted to, but again, not having space is a problem.
  • No good backgrounds. I guess I could just use white posterboard for backgrounds of books, but the minimalist bookstagram accounts don’t seem to do as well as the colorful ones, though minimalist is more my aesthetic for bookstagram anyway. Photography backgrounds don’t have to be super expensive, but I still have to spend money on them, and it’s money I don’t have a ton of right now.
  • No accessories. Bookstagrammers all seem to have adorable accessories that go with their photos. A lot of it is normal household stuff, but some is more creative like pretty oragami things or fake flowers. Again, I don’t have the money or the space for that kind of stuff.

 

So what a lot of my bookstagram struggling comes down to is lack of money and space. I’m realizing that basically any type of Instagram requires someone to be well off financially, and since I’m just starting out being financially independent, that does not describe me. A couple other bloggers have written about privilege and Instagram, and I’m definitely starting to feel like class privilege is major when it comes to being able to have a pretty Instagram.

Still, I’d really like to experiment with photography and have my very own aesthetically pleasing Instagram. I’m also starting to realize I don’t want to focus on just one subject, and maybe have more of a lifestyle-type Instagram, even though mine would be like a literary lifestyle Instagram, which seems not to be a thing yet. I have ideas for book posts, bullet journal posts, body positive posts, and makeup posts, but all of those things don’t usually go together in one Instagram. But I might be thinking too much about what a “typical” popular Instagram is and gaining followers right away instead of doing one that I just happen to enjoy.

I don’t know where I’m going to go with Instagram yet, but I’m leaning towards getting a good camera that I can do more experimenting with after a few more paychecks. I just want to find a new creative outlet to do that will maybe help distract me from being anxious sometimes and give me more to think about. We’ll just have to see if it works out, I guess.

 

Tell me about your experiences with Instagram! What advice do you have for me?

WWW Wednesday \\ 7-4-18

WWW Wednesday is a book blog meme hosted by Taking On A World of Words where book bloggers answer these questions:

  • What are you currently reading?
  • What are you reading next?
  • What did you just finish reading?

Here are my picks for this week:

Just Finished

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I read this on Monday while subbing for another librarian at a different branch in my library system and boy oh boy, it was the right choice. I had to order it special from Book Depository because it’s not available in the US, and I am SO happy I did. I couldn’t have not had Cait’s book because I’ve been a follower of hers for so long–think pre-Paper Fury when she was still The Notebook Sisters and blogged with her sister. I had super high expectations for this book and let me tell you, 1000 PERFECT NOTES did not disappoint. It was everything I love in contemporaries–beautifully written and lyrical, a huge emotional gut-punch, and music galore. As a musician I was like *tears* and as a human in general I was like *more tears* and then as a huge fan of Cait’s blog I was like *EVEN MORE TEARS* basically this book was a hugely amazing experience for me and it is a new favorite!

 

Currently Reading

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I’m finally! Reading! This book!! I’ve had an eARC of it for a while, then bought a physical copy because I didn’t think the script parts in the eARC would work out format-wise. I read a really early draft of NICE TRY, JANE SINNER when it was still called HOUSE OF ORANGE and was being marketed as NA, and I did really like it. I was so happy when I saw the book deal for it, and now that I’m reading it I’m even happier, because it’s EVEN BETTER than when I first read it. I like the diary format because it gives a perfect window to Jane’s quirky, cynical, snarky voice that makes this story really pop, and so far I’m really liking it again.

 

Reading Next

I never stick to a TBR list so this part of the post is always tough for me, but since I’m participating in Astrothon, I might go with the series prompt. I’ve been meaning to read SHADOW AND BONE for a long time, and since I have it on my Kindle, I might as well read it for this readathon. I also really want to read THE FOXHOLE COURT series because so many bloggers I follow have been gushing about how amazing and queer it is, and I need that in my life.

WWW Wednesday \\ 7-4-18

WWW Wednesday is a book blog meme hosted by Taking On A World of Words where book bloggers answer these questions:

  • What are you currently reading?
  • What are you reading next?
  • What did you just finish reading?

Here are my picks for this week:

Just Finished

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I read this on Monday while subbing for another librarian at a different branch in my library system and boy oh boy, it was the right choice. I had to order it special from Book Depository because it’s not available in the US, and I am SO happy I did. I couldn’t have not had Cait’s book because I’ve been a follower of hers for so long–think pre-Paper Fury when she was still The Notebook Sisters and blogged with her sister. I had super high expectations for this book and let me tell you, 1000 PERFECT NOTES did not disappoint. It was everything I love in contemporaries–beautifully written and lyrical, a huge emotional gut-punch, and music galore. As a musician I was like *tears* and as a human in general I was like *more tears* and then as a huge fan of Cait’s blog I was like *EVEN MORE TEARS* basically this book was a hugely amazing experience for me and it is a new favorite!

 

Currently Reading

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I’m finally! Reading! This book!! I’ve had an eARC of it for a while, then bought a physical copy because I didn’t think the script parts in the eARC would work out format-wise. I read a really early draft of NICE TRY, JANE SINNER when it was still called HOUSE OF ORANGE and was being marketed as NA, and I did really like it. I was so happy when I saw the book deal for it, and now that I’m reading it I’m even happier, because it’s EVEN BETTER than when I first read it. I like the diary format because it gives a perfect window to Jane’s quirky, cynical, snarky voice that makes this story really pop, and so far I’m really liking it again.

 

Reading Next

I never stick to a TBR list so this part of the post is always tough for me, but since I’m participating in Astrothon, I might go with the series prompt. I’ve been meaning to read SHADOW AND BONE for a long time, and since I have it on my Kindle, I might as well read it for this readathon. I also really want to read THE FOXHOLE COURT series because so many bloggers I follow have been gushing about how amazing and queer it is, and I need that in my life.

WWW Wednesday \\ 7-4-18

WWW Wednesday is a book blog meme hosted by Taking On A World of Words where book bloggers answer these questions:

  • What are you currently reading?
  • What are you reading next?
  • What did you just finish reading?

Here are my picks for this week:

Just Finished

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I read this on Monday while subbing for another librarian at a different branch in my library system and boy oh boy, it was the right choice. I had to order it special from Book Depository because it’s not available in the US, and I am SO happy I did. I couldn’t have not had Cait’s book because I’ve been a follower of hers for so long–think pre-Paper Fury when she was still The Notebook Sisters and blogged with her sister. I had super high expectations for this book and let me tell you, 1000 PERFECT NOTES did not disappoint. It was everything I love in contemporaries–beautifully written and lyrical, a huge emotional gut-punch, and music galore. As a musician I was like *tears* and as a human in general I was like *more tears* and then as a huge fan of Cait’s blog I was like *EVEN MORE TEARS* basically this book was a hugely amazing experience for me and it is a new favorite!

 

Currently Reading

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I’m finally! Reading! This book!! I’ve had an eARC of it for a while, then bought a physical copy because I didn’t think the script parts in the eARC would work out format-wise. I read a really early draft of NICE TRY, JANE SINNER when it was still called HOUSE OF ORANGE and was being marketed as NA, and I did really like it. I was so happy when I saw the book deal for it, and now that I’m reading it I’m even happier, because it’s EVEN BETTER than when I first read it. I like the diary format because it gives a perfect window to Jane’s quirky, cynical, snarky voice that makes this story really pop, and so far I’m really liking it again.

 

Reading Next

I never stick to a TBR list so this part of the post is always tough for me, but since I’m participating in Astrothon, I might go with the series prompt. I’ve been meaning to read SHADOW AND BONE for a long time, and since I have it on my Kindle, I might as well read it for this readathon. I also really want to read THE FOXHOLE COURT series because so many bloggers I follow have been gushing about how amazing and queer it is, and I need that in my life.

books i need to read before the end of the year

Being a book blogger is hard sometimes. You get to learn about so many books, which is great, and then often get to have so many books, whether you buy them or get ARCs or eARCs, which is SUPER great, but then, you have to find time to actually read all of your hundreds of books on your TBR list which is…not always great. I always manage to miss some great books, whether they’re some of my most anticipated reads or other amazing-sounding books I happen upon as the year goes on through my blog followings.

Today, I’m going to share some of the books I need to read before the end of the year for various reasons.

 

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9 Days & 9 Nights – Katie Cotugno

I am so ashamed that I haven’t read this one yet considering how long I’ve had the eARC of it. I LOVED 99 DAYS, the first book in this duology, because of the amazing writing and super complex characters. I’m hoping to read this book for Astrothon this week but we’ll see. It could probably be either my read-in-24-hours book or my read-in-one-sitting book. I hope it lives up to the goodness that was 99 DAYS.

 

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Turtles All the Way Down – John Green

This one is one I’m REALLY embarrassed about not reading yet considering it’s been out so long and I bought it very shortly after it was released. My boyfriend keeps bugging me to read it because he read my copy before me and says it’s really good. I’m very excited to see John Green write something diverse about someone with anxiety, so we’ll see how it turns out.

 

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Whichwood – Tahereh Mafi

I adored FURTHERMORE to tiny bits and pieces and was so psyched when I got to trade for an ARC of Whichwood. I even bought the HC edition before I read the book because I knew I’d love it. I actually started it a while ago and did enjoy it, but dropped it for some reason halfway through. This is a book I definitely need to come back to though, because I have to know what happens and Tahereh Mafi is my favorite.

 

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I Have Lost My Way – Gayle Forman

I can’t believe I haven’t read this yet, especially considering I got an actual ARC of it. Honestly the only Gayle Forman books I loved were the IF I STAY duology, but I haven’t stopped hoping she’ll write something as amazing as those books someday again. I HAVE LOST MY WAY sounds really good, and has a singer as one of the narrators, so I for sure need to read this one before the year is out.

 

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The Cruel Prince – Holly Black

OMG, whyyyyy haven’t I read this yet??? Holly Black is one of my few auto-buy authors; I just love her fantasy stories, especially the fae-related ones. Another blogger (I forget who) described this one as a Snow White/Evil Dead combo, which honestly sounds amazing. I NEED to read this book. Plus I was sent an ARC of THE WICKED KING, so I’ll have the sequel to dive right into if I end up liking CRUEL PRINCE.

 

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Here So Far Away – Hadley Dyer

I honestly couldn’t say why I want to read this one so much or why I think I’m going to end up loving it. It’s about a teen girl who falls for a MUCH older guy, which does not sound like something I’d like. However, for some reason my brain is convinced that I have to read this book. So it’s on the list, too.

 

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All of This is True – Lygia Day Penaflor

I was so excited to trade for an ARC of this because books in quirky formats often don’t work out as eARCs, which is the original format I got it in. I still haven’t read it though, because I am terrible. This book is about 4 teens who meet their favorite YA author and discover her next book is about all their secrets. I’m really curious to see how this plays out and how the formatting tells the story. Might also read this for Astrothon’s book in a unique format prompt.

 

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Nice Try, Jane Sinner – Lianne Oelke

I’ve said this with almost every book on this list, but I seriously cannot believe I haven’t read this yet. I got an eARC but then bought it because the formatting was weird and not Kindle-friendly, but then didn’t read it. I read a really early draft of it as an editorial intern in college, and it seems like it’s gone through some major changes including adding in a religious aspect and making it YA instead of NA, but the early draft was really good and based on how excited I am to read the final product, I really should have read it by now.

 

 

Have you read any of the books on this list? What should I read first? What books are you trying to tackle by the end of the year?

July Goals

Happy end of June, and happy July! It’s the beginning of a new month, time for my favorite types of posts (wrap-ups, goals, and monthly TBR), and time to begin a new bullet journal, which is always very exciting. I also get a day off next week because of July 4th, which is nice, and then I finally have a Saturday off at the end of the week. Yay!! I think I tried really hard to follow my June goals, so let’s take a look at those and then plan what I’m going to try to do in July.

June Goals

  • Read 5 books      !!     I read 6 books this month 🙂 They were also all good, which was nice. 2 were nonfiction, 2 were Pride related, and 2 were non-diverse contemporary fic.
  • Work up to writing    !?   I kind of did this! I finally read BIG MAGIC by Elizabeth Gilbert, which is what I was hoping would ignite the writing fire in me once more. It kind of did, and I at least feel more motivation to hopefully outline next month. So we shall see.
  • Work out at least once a week    !!     I did this! I either got steps or did some sort of working out, even if it was only 10 minutes.
  • Write at least one Pride-related post per week       !!       I definitely did this, since I started my It’s Pride! feature and wrote a bunch of LGBT-related posts over the course of the month. I loved writing them and now think I want to focus more on diverse books on the blog in general because those are the books I’m most passionate about reading and promoting.
  • Hang out with friends more     XX      Sadly I did not do this at all. Everyone was busy and hanging out with my friends is generally impossible during the week.
  • Experiment with cooking more      !!       I did this. I tried 3 new recipes. I made chicken marsala, which was delicious, a breakfast burrito which was less delicious, and really tasty brownies from scratch that were AMAZING (but so much work tbh).

All in all, June was a very successful month for me in terms of sticking to my goals. I kind of forgot what they were for the most part, but I still managed to do what I wanted to do somehow. I have to say it is very nice to be able to check off or half-check off almost everything on the list, so hopefully this will be more motivational for me for July.

Now, onto July goals!

 

July Goals

  • Read 5 books. This seems like a good, manageable reading goal (though of course I hope I read way more than this).
  • Participate in Astrothon. I found this read-a-thon on Instagram, hosted by Fey of Fey’s Bookish World. The goal is to read at least 4 books but I’m going to shoot for 3. You can also overlap at least 2 challenges.
  • Either outline my novel or actually start writing it and participate in Camp NaNoWriMo. I really love participating in the Camp WriMos that NaNoWriMo does in April and July. I haven’t done one of these in so long (well, since actual NaNoWriMo last year), but it always gets me back into writing regularly, which is good. I’ve talked a lot on the blog about wanting to get back into writing Queer Bookish Novel, and I have a lot of ideas for it, but I have no idea what happens after the middle of the story or how to get it to where I want it to go or how to end it. Still, I REALLY want to start writing again, and after reading BIG MAGIC, I feel somewhat more motivated to actually do it.
  • Do one healthy thing per day. I’ve made a list of healthy activities I can do in my new bullet journal, and I want to do at least one per day, whether it’s eating no sugar, trying a healthy new recipe, browsing healthy recipes, working out, getting steps, or various other things I have on the list. My goal right now is just be healthier and more fit, and hopefully worry less about weight and just about bodily health.
  • Experiment with journaling more. I love to journal in my bullet journal, but I mainly use that for my self-care chart, which I fill out daily, and my as my daily planner. I’ve realized recently that I don’t do a whole lot creatively with it or write about personal things, which I think would help me right now, so I’d like to change that. I just bought a book on Amazon about finding your personal path through journaling, and I’m very excited to read it because I love journaling and also enjoy self-help books. I’m also debating starting a bullet journal Instagram, because I really want to have an Insta of my very own and be good at some form of social media, plus experiment with photography, so journaling more would obviously be very beneficial for my Instagram dreams as well.
  • Have one relaxing evening during the week. I always dream about relaxing things I’m going to do when I get home or on the weekends like do a face mask or binge watch cute animated movies and binge read something, but then I never end up doing it. Usually it’s because Corey and I get caught up in Masterchef, which is nice, but lately I’ve been feeling like I need to add in a couple of quiet evenings to myself, because taking time for oneself is important, and I’m worried I’m getting too reliant on him for emotional relaxation and support. Plus, I like alone time and need it to recharge and be a real person. So, one relaxing night for myself per week.

 

What are your goals for July? How did you do with your June goals? Tell me in the comments 🙂

 

july tbr

New month, wrap-up posts, goal posts, and the best kind of posts of all: the TBR posts! I love doing a monthly TBR post, but this month I almost didn’t do one because I only have one book I want to read that actually releases in July. So, this TBR post is a mishmash of mostly June releases I haven’t gotten to yet and August releases that I want to read before their release.

Here’s what I hope to read in July:

  • Finding Yvonne – I’ve had this on my TBR pile for a while since getting my first ever batch of ARCs from LBYR. This book is about a violinist who realizes she might not be good enough to go to a conservatory after high school and struggles with that and an estranged relationship with her father, and meets a musician she relates to and becomes unexpectedly pregnant. I love books about music and this one sounds really good from an author who gets many good reviews for her other books. Am excited to read (also it’s short wooooo).
  • To Be Honest – First of all, the main character is a fat girl and second of all her nickname is SAVVY which is the cutest. I’m not too sure what it’s really about other than an overbearing mother obsessed with weight loss and a hopefully cute romance. I am hoping to feel seen in this book and for it to be very body positive and good.
  • The Looking Glass – I keep forgetting about this book then getting super excited about it all over again when I rediscover it and read the synopsis. It features dancing, a book of fairy tales, and a missing sister, all of which should combine to make a really good book.

 

  • Notes From My Captivity – I really loved Kathy Parks’ YA debut, THE LIFEBOAT CLIQUE, and have been looking forward to another snarky and sassy book from this author ever since. This one is about an aspiring journalist who goes to Siberia to chase a story about a legendary family of hermits…and gets kidnapped. This has all the makings of a Mel book and after her first book I have very high expectations of this author.
  • A Thousand Perfect Notes – Honestly, I didn’t even care about what the synopsis of this book was when I first heard it was coming out because it’s by CAIT of PAPER FURY, the blog that probably every blogger aspires to be like. I have been curious about Cait’s writing for so long as a long-time follower of Paper Fury, and was so psyched she was being published. I had to order this one special from the Book Depository since it’s not available in the US, and I literally almost cried when the package came.
  • The Art of French Kissing – I forgot about this book even though I have an eARC of it, then read a review somewhere and got excited about it. It’s about a teen girl who goes to a Chopped-style cooking competition to win a scholarship to culinary school, then ends up going to culinary war with one of the other contestants, aka hate-to-love romance aka the best romance trope. I hope this book is as adorable and fun as it sounds!

 

Have you read any of these books? What’s on your TBR list for July?

June 2018: I survived some more

I think the main theme of my recap posts since starting the blog has basically been “I survived.” Which is okay, I guess, and understandable since a LOT has happened since I started the blog, including continuing in my new job, settling into my apartment, getting kittens, having my boyfriend move in, a lot of mental health problems, and a new health issue with my heart. That is…way too much for a little me to handle, honestly. But in June, I did manage to survive some more, despite heavier depression and a super stressful library event that over 600 people attended.

The library event, which was basically a comicon, was probably the most stressful part of the month aside from worsening depression and the heart thing continuing. I have been stressed about it since I got the job and they kept telling me “oh hey, you’ll have to help run and put this together next year! off you go!” because I have not done much library programming, let alone a ginormous event that over 600 people have attended. However, it happened last Saturday, it went well, and I SURVIVED and did okay. I now feel much better about helping to run it next year after having gone through it, plus I’ll have my work partner running it with me, so I think we’ll be good. And that is a MAJOR stress off my chest.

The depression has not been so great. I felt weirdly affected by the recent celebrity suicides in the U. S. (Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain), even though I didn’t know too too much about either of them. Plus, Corey and I watched a season of Masterchef recently and found out literally right after watching the finale that one of the finalists committed suicide a year after the show was filmed. I took that really hard because he was so ambitious and had so many big dreams and honestly I think he could have achieved any of them, and that’s kind of what all my college professors told me before I graduated. Everyone thought I would do so well, and I feel like other than career-wise I’m not doing that well. These three things have made my suicidal ideation a lot worse than normal, and I’ve started seeing my therapist twice a week now because I just need to get through it and really want to WANT to be alive, which honestly I haven’t felt since a friend died a couple years ago.

But, I am doing my best to hang in there and just keep pushing through. My goal is to make it through August, and then maybe if I can do that, make it through another month. A year feels like so much, and forever seems impossible right now, but I’m doing my best and trying out a lot of new things to try and help myself, so hopefully something works.

Now, onto bookish things!

What I Read

I was secretly hoping to read at least 10 books this month, but as of the writing of this post, I have only read 6. However, this is still higher than normal for me this year, so I am still pleased with that number. Plus, I’m also 10 books ahead on my Goodreads challenge, which I now hope to exceed in numbers.

In terms of what I actually read, I read 2 nonfiction books and 4 YA books. I really didn’t read anything bad this month. SUMMER OF SALT was a little underwhelming but still very interesting and charming, with a good dose of bird-related magical realism and cool magical skills. My favorite two books were definitely INVISIBLE GHOSTS by Robyn Schneider and Morgan Matson’s new book, SAVE THE DATE. I’ve already talked about both in a couple other posts, so suffice it to say, they were both excellent.

 

Blogging Things

My stats are still very low (under 50 views per day), which I sometimes feel bad about, but I am still new and growing as a millionth-time blogger, so that is probably normal?? However, I’m getting more comments than I ever used to and more likes, which is very gratifying and nice. I like replying to people’s comments and talking to other bloggers and making online friends, which I’ve never had before.

My favorite things that I posted this month were all of my Pride-related posts, which I featured in a semi-feature called It’s Pride! Here are some of my favorite Pride posts:

The Pride Tag
Pride TBR List
Queer 2018 Books on my TBR List
Proud moments of Pride Month

I also started my own occasional Saturday feature called CATURDAY, where I pick a breed of cat and choose a book based on their personality or other characteristics. So far I’ve posted on Tortishells and Turkish Angoras. I am enjoying writing these posts thus far and people seem to like them as well 😀

 

How was your June?