If you’ve been following me for a while, you’ll know that a) I’m a librarian and b) that back in August, I transferred libraries in the library system where I had been working for over a year to become a children’s librarian. Though I was excited for this change because I’ve been interested in becoming a children’s librarian, I was also very nervous because it was, well, a change. So, being witchy, I decided to consult my tarot cards.
The card I ended up pick was the tower.
Now, for those who aren’t familiar with tarot, the tower is not one of the more desirable cards. People dread picking the Tower, along with Death, the Devil, and some of the minor arcana like Three of Swords, because the Tower represents a shattering and destruction of a fundamental structure in your life.
So, naturally, I was a little upset about getting the Tower right before making a major life change.
Now that I’ve been at the job for a few months, I can say that this card was probably accurate. In some ways, it was accurate in the traditional, negative way. By transferring, I did lose daily in-person contact with my best work friend, who has always been a major source of support for me since starting this job.
But, the Tower also seems to represent in this case a huge change in my life in terms of shattering some old attitudes I had about the job and saying “good riddance” to them. Since starting my recovery journey from depression, I’ve definitely noticed a huge change in my attitude about my job. I’m a lot better at not blaming myself when people, whether it be patrons or coworkers, are negative towards me when it’s not actually my fault. I actually enjoy helping people, and am willing to sit with someone to solve their problem. A lot of my main fears about the job have started to ebb and go away, which has made the day-to-day of the job much less stressful.
The Tower can represent a change in the structures of your life, and a change in PERSPECTIVE. The “structure” that has been shattered the most is my overbearing negativity about my job. I’m sure there will be times when I don’t like it, but my hope is that overall, I’ll be able to remember why I became a librarian in the first place.
In the end, the Tower card ended up being an accurate representation of my experience on this job, though not for the negative reasons I first predicted. Because the Tower came to pass, I’m a lot stronger, both as a person and as a librarian. So, if you get a card like the Tower in a tarot reading, it’s not necessarily a reason to be afraid! Sometimes, a card like the Tower can just mean that you should open yourself up to change and, if you’re lucky, you can still come out on top.